A man should learn to detect and watch that gleam of light which flashes across his mind from within, more than the lustre of the firmament of bards and sages. Yet he dismisses without notice his thought, because it is his. – Ralph Waldo Emerson
My favorite quote of all time is Alan Kay: ‘In order to predict the future, you have to invent it.’ I am all about inventing the future. Decide what you want the future to be and make it happen. Because you can. Write about your future now.
(Author: Cindy Gallop)
The blank page sits here, taunting me. The empty blue lines represent my immediate future. Some days, that long stretch of white intimidates me, and on other days, my hand flows across the page with almost no breaks between words. Some days, I start a post over and over again before I find any sort of rhythm. On other days, with words and feelings pouring from me, my immediate future is realized. Often, when I start, I finish in a completely different place that I originally intended.
I’m not a planner. I wasn’t one of those kids that knew what they wanted to be when they grew up…well, except that I wanted to be a Phoenix Sun. Imagine my disgust when I finally understood that, at just under five foot seven and a girl to boot, I was probably not going to make it in the NBA.
I’m one of those insufferable people who seems to have all of the important things in life…there must have been a grand master plan, right? A husband of almost nineteen years, two good kids, a mortgage, cars, decent jobs…all of the things that matter. Yet, I’ve never actually planned for any of these things. they have been happy accidents (Ben) or spur of the moment decisions (Dave proposing after we’d only known each other a month.)
To look ahead and try to pick something specific, lay it out and make it happen is completely foreign to me. At work, I have three running to do lists, to help keep me on track. I get distracted quickly.
Suddenly, though, there are things that I would like to accomplish, places I want to go and people who I want to spend time with. I’m nurturing ideas for things that will require effort, planning and focus.
Peering into my crystal ball, I’m seeing shapes through the mist, and for the first time, I’m feeling the desire to take steps to make these shapes more concrete. I’m better equipped emotionally, intellectually and personally than I have ever been before.